A Whole New Dimension In My Life

The last 3 months of my life has been a hell. I’ve lost someone two months ago. My college friend passed away last month. I almost lost my job. Everything keeps piling up. This began a spiritual search in my life. I asked myself, "What is this life all about?" Are we here just to work hard, accumulate things and that is it? I wanted to know more about eternal life. Most of the time I'am a happy person. But I do have a void in my heart from time to time. A sinking feeling. Most days I don't feel it -- but other days it's strong. So, lately it's been high. I'm starting to re-evaluate my life a bit, questioning my job, friends. I mean, I'll be dead soon -- and I've been driven mostly by the need or requirement to "accomplish something", "giveback", provide for myself. But obviously, something is not working here. Do any of you experience this feeling? If I died tonight, would I go to heaven? I hope so as I've really worked hard and tried to live a good life now. This past few weeks a Christian friend invited Jesus to come into my life. I experienced peace I never felt before. The daily things hadn't changed at all, but I certainly was changing in regards to how I looked at things. I had a whole new dimension in my life that I had never experienced before.With this new personal relationship with Jesus, I found myself turning to Him for daily direction. I always felt I had to impress and please other people; now I felt good getting to know what was pleasing to God. I had never realized that God would be interested in me personally --- and this gave me a whole new outlook. Instead of being all wrapped up in getting ahead and acquiring more things to fill that VOID, my life now began to take a new interest in other people. I wanted to learn more and more about God and share Him with others. I also was learning to balance my life properly...hanging out with my friends and appreciating extra time spent together with my family. I've learned that in any circumstance whether it be financial, family issues, personal, I can trust God completely. Whatever happens, I know that God is in control of my life and I just have tocontinue to focus on HIM

Another Despedida

6 months ago si Cecile ang umalis ( isa na sya ngayn successful 2nd Level Caregiver lolz ). Ngayon naman si Ate kate. Nakakalungkot. One of the reasons kung bakit hanggang ngayon nagsstay pa rin ako dahil sa mga kaibigan ko. Tapos ngayon mawawala pa. Some people reached places in their lives they planned to go. They think they know where they are going but the destination turns out different from expected. Akala ko magiging okei na ang lahat..pero my nagsasabing maglakad pa rin ako. Why are we afraid to jump into the uncertain? How will we know what's waiting for us if we don't step in the dark? Possible reasons that you are not able to change your live is because you do not know how to. Or maybe alam mo pero natatakot ka lang..natatakot kasi you’ve been to that dark before. You want to stay as is it and feel that there is nothing you can do about with your live. My magagwa ka naman… its just that you dont want to get out of your comfort zone. Eh nasan naman don ang comfort if you know deep inside my hinahanap ka? What if we could be happier pero ngttyaga tayo sa safe? Without a first step how can we move forward? If fear overtakes us..How can we even begin to wrestle with life? Haaay..sana ganun lang un. Hehe.