Share ko lang...
1.Listen w/o interrupting (prov.18)
2.Speak w/o accusing (james 1:19
3.Give w/o sparing (prov.21:26)
4.Pray w/o ceasing (colossians 1:9)
5.Answer w/o arguing (prov.17:1)
6.Share w/o pretending (ephesians 4:15)
7.Enjoy w/o complaint (philippians 2:14)
8.Trust w/o wavering (corinthians 13:7)
9.Forgive w/o punishing (colossians 3:13)
10.Promise w/o forgetting (prov.13:12)
Spread Love! Have a blessed day!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Imprisoned
I was listening intently to the BNP ( Banal Na Pag aaral) facilitator last friday, he was intense and passionate yet almost oblivious to the power his words held. I knew he was about to say something important. And then it hit me, that question, “Is there anything in your past that you have intellectually set aside — and yet, emotionally, you know it’s still there, bothering you, blocking you, preventing you from being your best self?” It hit me like electricity zapping into my chest. It zapped to life something I held dormant inside.
I know myself as someone who, if the situation called for it, can be very clinical about things, even with my personal experiences. Given, however, that chance to go back and fetch some unprocessed memories, and the threat that perhaps unconsciously, my blocks come from those I’ve arrogantly intellectually set aside — I was just so ready to admit that yes, there is this one emotional memory that is still there lurking, bumping, jiggling inside me. And now it is making its way to my consciousness — and I am just guessing — for a reason.
It took just that powerful nudge, an invitation to look back and examine my blocks. It made me recognize the existence of that one emotional memory that made a prisoner out of me. While it fueled my drive to success, I realize that that happening now deserves to be put to rest. That from now on, I shall be operating on a much more aware and purposeful level. I should travel my journey simply to be the best I can be, to do the best I could, for my own growth, my self-actualization, and for sustaining my capacity to help, to give of myself, to be a relevant, significant, contributing, and functional member of the society I am in.
I wrote this post in the hopes of paying it forward. I am so edified with the process, and thought that maybe you too can learn a thing or two about yourself by asking that same question. “Is there anything in your past that you have intellectually set aside — and yet, emotionally, you know it’s still there, bothering you, blocking you, preventing you from being your best self?”
I know myself as someone who, if the situation called for it, can be very clinical about things, even with my personal experiences. Given, however, that chance to go back and fetch some unprocessed memories, and the threat that perhaps unconsciously, my blocks come from those I’ve arrogantly intellectually set aside — I was just so ready to admit that yes, there is this one emotional memory that is still there lurking, bumping, jiggling inside me. And now it is making its way to my consciousness — and I am just guessing — for a reason.
It took just that powerful nudge, an invitation to look back and examine my blocks. It made me recognize the existence of that one emotional memory that made a prisoner out of me. While it fueled my drive to success, I realize that that happening now deserves to be put to rest. That from now on, I shall be operating on a much more aware and purposeful level. I should travel my journey simply to be the best I can be, to do the best I could, for my own growth, my self-actualization, and for sustaining my capacity to help, to give of myself, to be a relevant, significant, contributing, and functional member of the society I am in.
I wrote this post in the hopes of paying it forward. I am so edified with the process, and thought that maybe you too can learn a thing or two about yourself by asking that same question. “Is there anything in your past that you have intellectually set aside — and yet, emotionally, you know it’s still there, bothering you, blocking you, preventing you from being your best self?”
Closing A Chapter
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
[Text: Closing Cycles, by Paulo Coelho]
Thanks Ice. I really appreciated it. Still trying hehe..See you Soon!
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
[Text: Closing Cycles, by Paulo Coelho]
Thanks Ice. I really appreciated it. Still trying hehe..See you Soon!
Weekends..
The past few weeks has been Tiring. Tiring kasi 3 consecutive weeks na lagi na lang putol putol rest day ko because of word and swap.. And just the fact that I repeat something everyday.. it really causes me stress fucking sad!
My parents went to Baguio. Yipee 4 days akong mag isa lang sa bahay! Tapossakto natapat sa 3 days rest day ko! Sa wakas! Yahoo! A good break from the fast-paced work life I have! House Party na to! Lolz
I just got home from gym. My day was pretty boring. The best way to release the stress is to go to blog and on friendster hehe. I can't decide what to write about... I’m tired. Sometimes, when you're dog-ass tired and you feel like you just wanna sleep the whole week and do nothing but slug around for the next month, you ask yourself, "Is this what i really want to do with my life?" Have you ever been in that mood where all you wanna do is sit somewhere, stare into space, and think.. think of how you're doing now, what you're gonna be, what you have to do, what you want to do, what the hell you're doing..? Haaay…matutulog na lang muna ako. Hehe
My parents went to Baguio. Yipee 4 days akong mag isa lang sa bahay! Tapossakto natapat sa 3 days rest day ko! Sa wakas! Yahoo! A good break from the fast-paced work life I have! House Party na to! Lolz
I just got home from gym. My day was pretty boring. The best way to release the stress is to go to blog and on friendster hehe. I can't decide what to write about... I’m tired. Sometimes, when you're dog-ass tired and you feel like you just wanna sleep the whole week and do nothing but slug around for the next month, you ask yourself, "Is this what i really want to do with my life?" Have you ever been in that mood where all you wanna do is sit somewhere, stare into space, and think.. think of how you're doing now, what you're gonna be, what you have to do, what you want to do, what the hell you're doing..? Haaay…matutulog na lang muna ako. Hehe
Thursday, September 18, 2008
The Secret
…stop thinking you don’t have love. Stop focusing on what is lacking in your life. Start by recognizing that there are so many people around us who love us and whom we can love back! family, friends, people we work with… Then you become thankful sincerely of what you already have... this wonderful people around. Then start loving. It’s an action word. Start focusing your energies on making people you love happy. Spend time with them, make them laugh, make them feel appreciated. then extend to other people their need of loving: the poor, the elderly, the abandoned, the orphans and widows. Just keep on loving and loving. This way, you stop focusing on what you don’t have and you start focusing on loving people around. You end up sending signals of love to the universe. and that is what the universe will give back to you. LOVE, in all its forms, perhaps including romantic love.
Friday, August 22, 2008
A Whole New Dimension In My Life
The last 3 months of my life has been a hell. I’ve lost someone two months ago. My college friend passed away last month. I almost lost my job. Everything keeps piling up. This began a spiritual search in my life. I asked myself, "What is this life all about?" Are we here just to work hard, accumulate things and that is it? I wanted to know more about eternal life. Most of the time I'am a happy person. But I do have a void in my heart from time to time. A sinking feeling. Most days I don't feel it -- but other days it's strong. So, lately it's been high. I'm starting to re-evaluate my life a bit, questioning my job, friends. I mean, I'll be dead soon -- and I've been driven mostly by the need or requirement to "accomplish something", "giveback", provide for myself. But obviously, something is not working here. Do any of you experience this feeling? If I died tonight, would I go to heaven? I hope so as I've really worked hard and tried to live a good life now. This past few weeks a Christian friend invited Jesus to come into my life. I experienced peace I never felt before. The daily things hadn't changed at all, but I certainly was changing in regards to how I looked at things. I had a whole new dimension in my life that I had never experienced before.With this new personal relationship with Jesus, I found myself turning to Him for daily direction. I always felt I had to impress and please other people; now I felt good getting to know what was pleasing to God. I had never realized that God would be interested in me personally --- and this gave me a whole new outlook. Instead of being all wrapped up in getting ahead and acquiring more things to fill that VOID, my life now began to take a new interest in other people. I wanted to learn more and more about God and share Him with others. I also was learning to balance my life properly...hanging out with my friends and appreciating extra time spent together with my family. I've learned that in any circumstance whether it be financial, family issues, personal, I can trust God completely. Whatever happens, I know that God is in control of my life and I just have tocontinue to focus on HIM
Friday, August 15, 2008
Another Despedida
6 months ago si Cecile ang umalis ( isa na sya ngayn successful 2nd Level Caregiver lolz ). Ngayon naman si Ate kate. Nakakalungkot. One of the reasons kung bakit hanggang ngayon nagsstay pa rin ako dahil sa mga kaibigan ko. Tapos ngayon mawawala pa. Some people reached places in their lives they planned to go. They think they know where they are going but the destination turns out different from expected. Akala ko magiging okei na ang lahat..pero my nagsasabing maglakad pa rin ako. Why are we afraid to jump into the uncertain? How will we know what's waiting for us if we don't step in the dark? Possible reasons that you are not able to change your live is because you do not know how to. Or maybe alam mo pero natatakot ka lang..natatakot kasi you’ve been to that dark before. You want to stay as is it and feel that there is nothing you can do about with your live. My magagwa ka naman… its just that you dont want to get out of your comfort zone. Eh nasan naman don ang comfort if you know deep inside my hinahanap ka? What if we could be happier pero ngttyaga tayo sa safe? Without a first step how can we move forward? If fear overtakes us..How can we even begin to wrestle with life? Haaay..sana ganun lang un. Hehe.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Brat Guy
He chose to be lazy, dependent brat happily partying and asking his parents for gimmick allowance. He gets what he wants. He took his 4 years course for 5 ½ years when he was in college dahil sa kalokohan. He is a member of fraternity (Delta Sigma). He always had gotten into some trouble at school. He had 4 stitches in his lips and 2 stitches in his right face. He also jailed in prison for one night because of this Org. He always wants to be the center of attention.
He is kind though. He the one you talk to when you're feeling down because he's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. He is the one you call when you need a date. He wants to be special to someone, too. We all do. Anyway, yeah. I'm the Brat guy. We cry, too. A lot.
The Brat guy has changed. He is now striving to be better than the day he was before. Baka sakaling mapatawad sya ng Diyos sa nagawang nyng malaking kasalanan. Kasalanan na habambuhay nya na ata pagbabayaran. He now thinks of the other before he thinks of himself. He loves more his family. He loves more God.
Sa mga nangyayari sa buhay natin, whether in our family, work or personal should have given us enough evident to change our live. We do not need wait for a particular painful event that fall on us before we decided to change our life. Change to be a better person or to achieve our heart's deepest desire.
He is kind though. He the one you talk to when you're feeling down because he's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. He is the one you call when you need a date. He wants to be special to someone, too. We all do. Anyway, yeah. I'm the Brat guy. We cry, too. A lot.
The Brat guy has changed. He is now striving to be better than the day he was before. Baka sakaling mapatawad sya ng Diyos sa nagawang nyng malaking kasalanan. Kasalanan na habambuhay nya na ata pagbabayaran. He now thinks of the other before he thinks of himself. He loves more his family. He loves more God.
Sa mga nangyayari sa buhay natin, whether in our family, work or personal should have given us enough evident to change our live. We do not need wait for a particular painful event that fall on us before we decided to change our life. Change to be a better person or to achieve our heart's deepest desire.
Friday, July 18, 2008
There's still point after all...
This post is continuation of POINTLESS I wrote 2 weeks a ago..
Have you ever felt totally disillusioned with life? Ever felt that things were so bad they cannot possibly get any worse? The cruel truth is, it can get worse. This is by no means a reason for you to get even more depressed. Rather, why not appreciate and give thanks for what you still have? Today is my LOLO's 60th birthday. Thanks God. Sa wakas makikita ko uli mga pinsan ko. At the end of the day, family mo pa rin ang lalapitan mo pag my problema ka. Rather than let the bad things get you down, it is better to focus on the positives instead. Hindi ka nag iisa. There are a lot of things I have to appreciate. I won an iPod last week! Bwahahaha I have a new Prp shirt. I brother na laging basted is getting married! Yah0o!! I still have a work. Maraming naghahanap ng trabaho. Pag gising ko handa na ang food. Yung iba wala makain =( . Appreciate and take care of what you have while you still have them. I would like to say thank you sa kaibigan ko na d ako iniwan. My college friends Charles, Les, Lee at ang kakambal kong si Ice hehe. My office friends Kris (na gumastos ng 3 pesos sa haba ng text advice nya ). Kay Yen ( salamat sa Batman inadvance. LOlz ). Kay kiddo na malibog, na laging nagpapantasya kay Manang hehe. Kay MJ ( na wala naman ginawa pero ramdam ko presence ). Sa Spam community hehe . Kay Sir Alex sa load hehe. Sa Teamates ko. Sa TM ko na laging sumusuporta at nagtitiwala ( parang awards night lang hehe ). I would also like to thanks FnH for my clothes and Bambi Fuentes for my hair and make up. LOLz ( Kris Aquino? ) hehehe. Appreciate. Life might not seem so bad anymore then.
Have you ever felt totally disillusioned with life? Ever felt that things were so bad they cannot possibly get any worse? The cruel truth is, it can get worse. This is by no means a reason for you to get even more depressed. Rather, why not appreciate and give thanks for what you still have? Today is my LOLO's 60th birthday. Thanks God. Sa wakas makikita ko uli mga pinsan ko. At the end of the day, family mo pa rin ang lalapitan mo pag my problema ka. Rather than let the bad things get you down, it is better to focus on the positives instead. Hindi ka nag iisa. There are a lot of things I have to appreciate. I won an iPod last week! Bwahahaha I have a new Prp shirt. I brother na laging basted is getting married! Yah0o!! I still have a work. Maraming naghahanap ng trabaho. Pag gising ko handa na ang food. Yung iba wala makain =( . Appreciate and take care of what you have while you still have them. I would like to say thank you sa kaibigan ko na d ako iniwan. My college friends Charles, Les, Lee at ang kakambal kong si Ice hehe. My office friends Kris (na gumastos ng 3 pesos sa haba ng text advice nya ). Kay Yen ( salamat sa Batman inadvance. LOlz ). Kay kiddo na malibog, na laging nagpapantasya kay Manang hehe. Kay MJ ( na wala naman ginawa pero ramdam ko presence ). Sa Spam community hehe . Kay Sir Alex sa load hehe. Sa Teamates ko. Sa TM ko na laging sumusuporta at nagtitiwala ( parang awards night lang hehe ). I would also like to thanks FnH for my clothes and Bambi Fuentes for my hair and make up. LOLz ( Kris Aquino? ) hehehe. Appreciate. Life might not seem so bad anymore then.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Happiness
My TM Tantan sent an email “There is no easy job. There is no easy life. Happiness is not attainable if you don’t chose to be happy of what you have right now. It is always a choice, a choice that everybody should make. “. Paulit ulit kong binasa. Haaay..yah right its is a matter of choice. Lagi kong sinasabi na hindi na ako masaya pero wala naman ako ginagawang paraan para mapabuti ako. It is our attitude that makes us feel happy or unhappy. We meet all kinds of situations during the day, and some of them may not be conductive to happiness. We can choose to keep thinking about the unhappy events, and we can choose to refuse to think about them, and instead, relish the happy moments. All of us constantly go through various situations and circumstances, but we do not have to let them influence our reactions and feelings. We can choose to be happy, and we can do a lot to add happiness to our lives. . I should learn to appreciate kung anong meron ako.
Alone
I don't know what to do anymore with my life. No matter how hard I try to better it, it always takes every turn for the worse. Everything keeps piling up, and I cannot do anything about it. I don't enjoy anything anymore really apart from when I take drugs or drink alcohol. When I’m on my own I feel empty and down. When I’m with other people I feel anxious and my moods can change dramatically from one moment to the next. I've lost trust in people. I'll be feeling happy and upbeat one minute and suicidal the next. I know that life is up and down, and that we have to accept that. But it's gotten to a point where I’m so far in a hole that I can no longer see the light...
Friday, July 4, 2008
POINTLESS
I'm always in the wrong place, at the wrong time & things never seem to go according to plan. Sometimes I feel like it's all pointless. I'm confused and restless and...TIRED.
I really do want to make my life worth something. I thought I knew how, but I guess I was wrong. The only part of the day I look forward to is day time after my work, when I get to leave everything behind and fall deep into sleep, and dream of another world, where everything is beautiful, where everything is alright.
I hate client. I hate this place. I hate this society thing, where we all have to do the same thing, and pretend, play the game. Make money to survive. Pay bills. Make Love. Plan this, plan that. Struggle with this, struggle with that. Can't do it. I'm not meant for this. Never was. I'm not even interested. I wish I could turn into wind, and float away. away. away. I feel like I just want to give up & rest...
In the meantime, I'll be tired. I'll be confused. Perhaps that will never go away. I'll be restless. Restlessness will lead to more frustration. Frustration will force me to find alternative ways of doing what I can to do for myself. And then there will be a point after all.
I really do want to make my life worth something. I thought I knew how, but I guess I was wrong. The only part of the day I look forward to is day time after my work, when I get to leave everything behind and fall deep into sleep, and dream of another world, where everything is beautiful, where everything is alright.
I hate client. I hate this place. I hate this society thing, where we all have to do the same thing, and pretend, play the game. Make money to survive. Pay bills. Make Love. Plan this, plan that. Struggle with this, struggle with that. Can't do it. I'm not meant for this. Never was. I'm not even interested. I wish I could turn into wind, and float away. away. away. I feel like I just want to give up & rest...
In the meantime, I'll be tired. I'll be confused. Perhaps that will never go away. I'll be restless. Restlessness will lead to more frustration. Frustration will force me to find alternative ways of doing what I can to do for myself. And then there will be a point after all.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I'm Tired
My professor back in college said, “The road that we refuse to take is usually the road that leads to a good life. You just have to take a risk!” Sana ganon kadali. Sana kaya ko.Hindi nanaman ako makatulog kakaisip kung itutuloy ko pa to.I just keep on praying to God to continue giving me strength and wisdom to do what is right.
Always Be My Baby
It is often said that “first love never dies” but I hope it does. Because that little saying has ruined my relationships and has bothered me for years now!
My first love was my 3rd girlfriend. Yes, my 3rd girlfriend. In the 3rd year of our relationships, we broke up. We did not hear from each other since. I had two relationships after but all were short-lived. I don’t know why. After two years, we saw each other. I felt just how much I missed her. Her eyes. Her smile. But then, hindi na pwedeng maging kame. Memories of the past continue to haunt me. Somewhere, at the back of my mind, I still believe that she and I are meant for each other. She will always be my baby.
My first love was my 3rd girlfriend. Yes, my 3rd girlfriend. In the 3rd year of our relationships, we broke up. We did not hear from each other since. I had two relationships after but all were short-lived. I don’t know why. After two years, we saw each other. I felt just how much I missed her. Her eyes. Her smile. But then, hindi na pwedeng maging kame. Memories of the past continue to haunt me. Somewhere, at the back of my mind, I still believe that she and I are meant for each other. She will always be my baby.
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